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Hey guys, Jess here!

I’m sorry that I’ve been MIA this month, in all honesty I’m just out of steam.

We’ve both been working – All. The. Time.

And when we’re not working, we’re trying to keep up with every day life, and Thomas. I’m honestly losing my grip lately and I’m having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

On my days off, when Thomas has a nap, I have a nap. Today marks the first time I’ve mopped my floors since the last day of February. Guys, that’s a MONTH.

So much gunk stuck the the floor. I don’t even want to describe the color of the water when I was finally finished.

I guess this is the struggle. The “work life family” balance. I have to believe that it’s not always going to feel like I’m running up hill all day with a bolder. I’m starting to feel like Sisyphus, only without the whole Greek thing…I’m too Canadian for that I think.

Plus, I just don’t GET eating grape leaves.

Someone once told me, in a moment where I was emotionally delicate- “You’ve gotta have hope”

We don’t really talk anymore, our lives took different paths – but I think about that conversation, and it always reminds me that it’s not all lost.

I mean, I don’t feel totally found…but I’m not totally lost either. Like…I’m swimming, but I’m not really good at it.

I understand that I’m really just having a pity party where the table is set for one. Everyone struggles, and I am no exception! Just sometimes, it would be nice to just…be. To not always feel like you have to be on your game! To not have a forever running to-do list in your mind that is slowly trying to over take the moments you’ve found to just breath.

Have I used enough metaphors in this post? I feel like I can stick a few more in here just for you guys!

For the few people (or person) that keeps coming back to check up, thanks!

Views are always appreciated! Hopefully in the next few weeks I’ll have something relatively intelligent to say, or a new recipe!

Gotta have hope right?

Thanks for the love guys! And even though it doesn’t seem like I’m trying,

Stay possible.

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